Imagine almost dying.  Have you ever been so sick you almost died!  

Imagine being so sick because you didn’t take care of yourself First.  

Many people have sinus problems on a regular basis.    The runny nose, the congestion and coughing; those are all normal symptoms of sinus problems.  You don’t have to stop working, right?  You don’t have to stop doing things around the house, right?  You just keep on working and getting things done.   Imagine this sinus infection made you so sick, it turns into Covid-19.   

The COVID-19 Pandemic is affecting the entire world.  Millions have died.  It is far more damaging than I ever imagined.  Just pretend for a moment you had sinus problems, just like you normally have every year.  You might find yourself so sick that you were almost hospitalized.

I know you’re wondering how I could ignore all the signs.  I never thought I would get Covid-19, but I did, by letting my regular sinus problems turn into COVID-19. Can you imagine having seasonal sinus problems for months and continue going to work and doing things that wear you down so much and completely ignoring your health and well-being, that you get to the point of almost being hospitalized.   Focus your awareness on all the people that have to be hospitalized for COVID-19.  We all know what regularly happens when people with COVID-19 go into a hospital, don’t we?  They don’t come out!  

Presently, my husband and I are in COVID-19 Recovery.  I wonder if you realize that even after I was diagnosed as negative for COVID-19, there are symptoms that keep you so exhausted you can’t function.  It takes a while to get back to normality.  

I am still dealing with sinus congestion, headaches, bleary eyes, & COVID-19 Insomnia.  Consciously, you know that you don’t have COVID-19, but unconsciously the symptoms of COVID-19 remain, and you feel the same as you did when you had the sickness.  Plus, new symptoms start appearing that you never had before, infections in your eyes, having knee pain so bad you must use a cane, plus many more.  

Here I was, 68 years old, and I was lost.  I was keeping so busy doing volunteer work, plus working, plus taking care of husband and kids, plus, plus, plus.  The list goes on.  I was so busy doing so many things that I was wearing myself out.  (Anybody else feel this way?)  

At one point I asked myself, “If I am supposed to Love myself as I am and take care of myself first, why didn’t I?  My doing things was hiding something and I realized I needed Help.  My past, and the beliefs I associated with them, made me feel that I wasn’t good enough.  Have you ever felt you had to prove yourself all the time?   Have you ever felt you weren’t good enough, smart enough, pretty enough? Have you ever felt imperfect, unloved and unworthy?  Can you imagine, I was trying to prove to myself that I was a wonderful person all my life.    

I didn’t Love myself.  It’s as if I became aware that I need to STOP DOING and sit still and breathe.  I did not have to prove myself; I did not have to be perfect.  I finally became aware that I can love myself and take care of myself FIRST.  By becoming aware, it helped me learn that I don’t have to prove anything to anybody, and I am good enough, just as I am.  I can now Love my true authentic self.

This book is written from a layman’s point of view about my COVID-19 journey.  This is written to give you the real day to day happenings of the COVID-19 sickness and how learning to Love Myself saved my life.

 

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Amazon.com: The Gift of Covid-19: How Learning to Love Myself Saved my Life (9798528516004): Foster, GiJane: Books